Anxiety, Depression, & Fears

Hello everyone, I’ve gotten some messages lately asking if I’m abandoning all my stories. If I’ve given up on writing. I would like to address that now.

No, I have not abandoned my stories. No, I haven’t given up on writing. I am fighting a hard battle with depression and anxiety that has made it hard to write at this present time.

I have been fighting depression since middle school (Jr. High). I have been fighting severe anxiety since 2004. I also have an extreme fear of vomiting. My anxiety leaves me nauseated, so I’m having quite a battle with it. Through the years I’ve learned to handle it quite well. However, since February it’s hit harder than it ever has before. Now I find myself battling my fear, my anxiety, and my depression, and it’s gotten so bad that I don’t want to live anymore even though I don’t have the guts to actually end it. Everything I write is very depressing. I don’t want to do that to you all. I have a Dr.’s appointment tomorrow with a new Dr. We’re going to see if they can help me pull out of this again. Please continue to be patient with me. I will write again. I just need more time to get better. To get healthy again.

I am also re-branding myself in a way. I will still be Jenna Tee. But I will no longer be JennaTeeWrite. I will not be JennaTeeTales. The new blog is under construction. I am working on fixing it. But you can still go and follow it for when I do start writing again.

http://jennateetales.wordpress.com/

I adore all of my readers, and thank you for being as patient as you have. Just be patient for a little longer please, while I sort myself out.

–Jenna Tee (JennaTeeTales)

Need ya help with Charming Outlaw’s Angel!

Ok, I need a little bit of help from my readers.
In my story, Charming Outlaw’s Angel. Twilight/SOA. Bella/Jax. You all know that Bella is half human and half angel. I’ve implied that the members of the mother charter are all supernatural beings. I’m having trouble deciding what two of them are. Bobby and Chibs. Now so far, I have quite a few werewolves. I have one or two warlocks, and one or two vampires. Now, what I need from all of you is a list of what you think the members should be. So, just copy and paste the list below into a comment and put what you think they should be. (ex. Jax – werewolf). If you see that someone is not on the list, add them. They may or may not make an appearance in the story, but at least I’ll have them ready.

Members list:

Bella – Nephilim (Half human, half angel)

Jax Teller – Werewolf

Gemma Teller-Morrow – Werewolf or witch?

Clay Morrow –

John Teller –

Tig Trager –

Chibs Telford –

Bobby Munson –

Opie Winston –

Juice Ortiz –

Piney Winston –

Happy Lowman –

Rane Quinn –

T.O.Cross –

Lenny –

Otto –

Ratboy –

Filthy Phil –

Kozik –

Half-sack –

Also, I’m toying with the idea of making the town of Charming kind of a supernatural safe haven. Most of the town being supes. Let me know what you think.

Big Apology & Explanation

I need to apologize to my readers. I am very sorry. I know I’ve been gone a long while, and I’d like to explain why. There are a few reasons. One of them is me suffering from anxiety and depression. When it hits harder, I just can’t bring myself to write. I just can’t. Another reason is all of my WIPs I started with no real direction, but quickly lost interest in them doing it like that. So, Here’s what I’m going to do from now on. From now on, I will focus on one story at a time. I will write it, edit it, then post it. If it is a multi-chapter. I will NOT be posting chapter to chapter. I will write the whole story, then post each chapter after I’ve edited each chapter. I am going through some issue in real life right now, but I’m hoping to start this soon-ish. Please be patient with me. I do miss writing and I am trying to get back into it. Thank you to those who have stuck around with me!

–Jenna Tee

Star-Crossed Twilight Update

No, this is not a chapter update, I apologize. This is just an update to let you know about the story I’m working on. After not working on any of my stories for over a year just about. I went back to re-read the first chapter of Star-Crossed Twilight just to make sure of where I’m at in the story when I write, and to kind of give me ideas, and I’m finding myself editing the first chapter. Lol. So, the first part of the story, when I re-upload it, will have new stuff. I am working on it now. Trying not to make it sound to high school-ish even though it takes place in high school. Hopefully, I will finish this one and move onto the next. I just had no motivation to write for a while, but I found my motivation again.

–Jenna Tee

Hey everyone!

Hey everyone!

Just thought I’d let everyone know what’s been happening with me. I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted a story or a chapter, and to answer a question that several people have asked or commented…

Yes, I am working on that story. Yes, I am working on all of my stories. I have just decided not to post new stuff until it’s finished.

Also, I am making changes to the blog and how I post, also where I post. I have decided to post full stories on my blog, AO3, and STARS. Every other site I belong to will only get Summaries and/or sneak-peaks of stories with a link to the blog.

I have 2 blogs. Under 2 pen names. One all of you know as Jenna Tee. I put most of my stories up on it. However, I also have Jenni Enchanted. Where I put my darker, kinkier, risqué stories on. Now, please keep in mind that everyone has different tastes. Just because I turn Bella into a bit of a slut, sleeping with several men, or having 3somes. Just because my character is a submissive. This doesn’t mean I live the lifestyles that the characters do. THIS IS FICTION. If you don’t like it, exit out. Don’t be a jerk, don’t bash me because of it. “Sick, twisted bitch.” It is just made up. It is fiction. Keep that in mind before you act like a jerk with comments. That is why I post them on a different blog, that way you don’t have to see it everytime you read my other stories. I will post links to both blogs.

Main blog – Jenna Tee – https://jennateewrites.wordpress.com/

Rated R blog – Jenni Enchanted – http://jennienchanted.wordpress.com/ (No stories posted on this one yet)

Also, I’d like to take a minute to talk about one of my stories. Charming Outlaw’s Angel. Twilight/Sons of Anarchy. Bella/Jax…

In the first chapter, it’s stated that Bella doesn’t like the “What happens on a run, stays on a run” rule that the MC has, but she deals with it. She just gave Jax a few rules to go along with it. After some people read that chapter, I got some unsavory comments. Bashing me for Bella being fine with Jax “cheating” on her. This is the way that an MC works. Now for those of you who might not understand the saying. What this means is when the guys in the club go on a run (ride out to another city/state for a job) they can have their fun with other women who are there to pleasure the club members. It does not get brought home. It kind of goes along with “What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas”. Now, in my story, Bella told Jax, while she didn’t like it, she would deal with it, and she told him her own rules to go along with that, such as always wearing a condom, always showering and cleaning his mouth before he touched her again, and NEVER EVER bring the women home (to the city she lives in). I bring this up, because there will be more scenes in the stories where it is very obvious that Jax is “cheating” and Bella will ignore it. *Spoiler alert for the story* I planned on having the scenes with Emily Dunkin where Jax has to convince her to have sex with Skeeter by Jax having sex with her himself. He will let Bella know about what he has to do so that she isn’t caught off guard since Emily lives in the city. It will be a “Do what you have to do, I guess, but I will beat her ass if she gloats to my face about it.” I know I will get nasty comments about it. Those comments will be ignored by me, if not deleted completely. Don’t like it? Don’t read it. Exit out.

Now on to other things…

GED – I am trying again to get my GED. I am so horrible in math that I’ve failed the math portion twice. I start online classes for the GED on the 27^th. I have to maintain 12 hours a week doing just that. That will take up a portion of my time. This is important to me.

Dog Walking – I am unemployed. Partially due to my anxiety. It makes getting a job and keeping a job difficult. However, I am starting a profile on rover.com where I hope to start walking dogs for some cash.

Making and selling bookmarks – I have made braided bookmarks for years, but I’ve never sold them. Recently, I’ve decided to open a store on etsy.com to sell them. I will post the link on here when it’s up and running. I am just trying to get some things set in stone first. Deciding how to ship them has me slightly snagged at the moment.

All of this being sad, I have always sucked at updating and posting on a schedule. I choose not to put myself on a writing or posting schedule. I will be slightly busy over the next few months though. So keep that in mind before you complain about me not updating my stories. People have lives outside of fiction. We are not being paid to do this.

 

–Jenna Tee

 

Please Respect The Writers

I’ve talked about this topic before, and it seems I’m going to do it again.

People who don’t write, but do read fanfiction. Some of them love to complain to the writer that they don’t post enough or quick enough. Some of them even get quite nasty about it. Now that’s just rude and disrespectful.

We don’t have to post what we write. We could just write and keep it all to ourselves. I even have a few pieces that I will never post for personal reasons. We choose to post because of our readers. However, when some readers start being jerks about our posting schedules, we tend to lose interest in writing.

Life happens. Sometimes we just don’t have time to write or post. Some writers have spouses, kids, jobs, etc in real life. Sometimes the writer doesn’t have time to write or post for a few months because of real life.

Sometimes writers like myself suffer from anxiety and depression. Either everything we write is too dark or depressing to ever post, or we just can’t bring ourselves to write anything.

Sometimes we have writer’s block. It happens.

I have one writer, I love her work, she hasn’t posted anything in months, but I knew she had a spouse, kids, and a job in real life. Over the last few days, she’s been posting like crazy. New story, several chapters to on going stories. She showed us that while she was writing, she just didn’t have time to sit down and post. Then she sent out a note, defending herself, WHICH SHE SHOULDN’T HAVE TO DO. She was defending herself because people were complaining that she hasn’t posted in months. If you’re really a fan of her work, you’d understand and respect her life. Period.

There is another writer that I love. She only posted on Fanfiction.net. She was getting nasty messages about her posting schedule. She’s in school. EVERYONE knows how school can be. How hectic it can get. She tore down everything from her Fanfiction.net account. Her stories, her faves, her profile, even disabled private messaging. I don’t think she posts anywhere else. I don’t even know if she’s writing anymore. DISRESPECTFUL PEOPLE CAUSED HER TO JUST QUIT!

Please for the love of God, keep in mind that we all have things going on in our lives outside of fiction. That is always a priority over fiction. Be respectful to the writers and their lives.

New WIP Teaser – The Key

Fandom – Twilight/The Covenant

Pairing – Bella/Pogue

“Let me see if I understand this right..” Bella spat, angrily. “Not only have I felt like an abomination my whole life because females aren’t supposed to get the power, and you all removed everything about that from all of the books. I also have never felt the love of a parents, because my biological parents sent me away, pretending to be my Aunt and Uncle, when my real Aunt and Uncle pretended to be my parents, even though they never wanted kids. Renee couldn’t stand me, turning me into her own personal maid, chef, and work horse. Charlie was indifferent to me. I have a twin brother, who I always thought was my cousin. I have always thought it was weird that I could feel his pain and vice versa. Oh, and the kicker I’m destined to bond with Pogue intimately, ruining his relationship with his girlfriend, Kate, who by the way, is an amazing lady. I also have to sacrifice myself, spilling my blood, so that the boys curse can be lifted letting them use their power without aging. Also, letting their fathers age backgrounds, removing the effects of the curse from the years. And the only way I will come back to life is if Pogue falls in love with me, which is highly unlikely since he loves his girlfriend. And you didn’t think I should grow up knowing this? Knowing I would have to die to break the curse. Did I miss anything?”

Evelyn Danvers grimaced. Bella was right. That all sounded really bad. She looked around the room at the boys. They were all angry at the adults.

Star-Crossed Twilight ON HOLD

Hello lovelies,

I am sorry to say that I am putting this story ON HOLD. I know some of you may be upset by that, but I am having major writer’s block with this story. So, for now, I am going to work on other stories. Eventually, I will come back to this one.

If you have any ideas for this story, feel free to share them with me!

—Jenna Tee

Stories on the go!

I decided to make ebook copies of my stories! Check them out!

There is also a new look to the site as you can tell!

Update! Jasper’s Child!

Hello Lovelies! I have posted the last 2 chapters for Jasper’s Child! It is now complete!

Chapter 6 – Final Battle

Chapter 7 – Epilogue